Working through the frustration

Frustration is high in the list right now. I find myself feeling more and more guilty and I can't take it anymore. I have reached a point in my life where I believe it's time for change. Something has to give and break at some point. I just need to find my way to the top.
Sometimes I feel like I am being controlled. I don't know our financial situation, I don't know our bills, what's in our account. I don't have a license to drive myself anywhere. This is going to change. I am making my mind up right here and now.
Damn it - this is my life too. I have every right to enjoy it just like anyone else.
I will start making the changes and plans that need to be made. I have things that have to come first in my life. I will not bow any longer. Not to anyone! I deserve to live in happiness and its up to me to make myself happy. My happiness doesn't depend on anyone else but me!