GLAD TO HAVE MY HOUSE....

I AM SO GLAD TO HAVE MY HOUSE BACK...WELL, LET REPHRASE A LITTLE. I MUST ELABORATE ON MY HOUSE GUEST.

BE REAL - BOTTOM LINE, IT'S HARD TO LIVE WITH SOMEONE WHO IS DISABLED AND DOESN'T CARE FOR THEMSELVES. I NEVER KNEW HOW HARD IT WOULD BE. I AM DISABLED. BUT, I CARE FOR MYSELF. WHEN I CAN'T, I AM OPEN ABOUT - SAYING - I NEED HELP TAKING A SHOWER...THIS ONE - DID NOT!

I AM NOT SURE THAT SHE EVEN WORE, OR OWNED FOR THAT MATTER....DEODORANT...I SWEAR, IT WILL TAKE ME DAYS TO GET RID OF THE SMELL...IN THE MONTH SHE WAS HERE, SHE TOOK EXACTLY AND NO EXAGGERATION - 4 MAYBE 5 SHOWERS....ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? BUT, BY THE EVENING SHE SMELLED LIKE SHE NEEDED ANOTHER SHOWER...I SWEAR! I WAS EMBARASSED FOR ANYONE TO EVEN MEET HER THAT CAME OVER. BECAUSE I WAS ASHAMED TO SAY SHE STAYED HERE WITH AS BAD A HER HYGIENE WAS. I TOOK ALL I COULD. PEOPLE BEGAN TO COMMENT TO ME ABOUT IT. I FELT BAD FOR HER ON ONE HAND, BUT ON ANOTHER - THERE'S NO EXCUSE TO STINK. NONE!

SHE IS NOT SO DISABLED THAT SHE CAN'T SHOWER. I WAS JUST READY FOR HER TO GO. I GOT TO THE POINT OF DONE.

JOHN WAS OVER THE TOP AND I MET HIM THERE....IT HAD TO STOP.

YOU EVER SEEN BEBE'S KIDS? WELL, THERE'S A BABY THERE, THE BABY NEVER GETS A DIAPER CHANGE AND THE FLIES SWARMED AROUND IT AND THE ODOR WAS SEEN...THIS GREEN FOG...SAME WITH SAY, LINUS ON CHARLIE BROWN THAT BROWN FOG FROM THE STINK THAT SURROUNDED HIM, IT WAS THIS BAD. I AM NOT KIDDING. IT WAS SO HORRIBLE.

THE HYGIENE, THE NOT BEING ABLE TO GO TO MY ROOM, THE MESS, I WAS JUST DONE.....DONE...DONE!!!

I AM KEEPING THIS TO MY PREFERRED LIST...I DON'T THINK IT WOULD BE FAIR TO DIRT TALK TO EVERYONE, JUST A SELECT FEW...LOL

OKAY, I FEEL A LITTLE BAD. BECAUSE I SHOULD TALK SHIT. BUT, I HAD TO VENT. I MEAN IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS. I JUST CAN'T PLAY ALONG AFTER SO MANY NOTES.

THE FIRST FEW DAYS, IT WAS FINE...BUT, AFTER NOT SHOWERING..SHE DIDN'T PICK UP AFTER HER SELF, SHE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING HERSELF. HOW DID SHE CARE FOR HERSELF, LIVING IN HER OWN APARTMENT? HOW IS IT POSSIBLE?
IS SHE FAKING IT TO A POINT?

I AM JUST DIFFERENT. I GUESS. I HAVE A FRIEND WHO THINKS LIKE ME TOO. I AM ILL, I KNOW HOW ILL I AM. I MUST TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I HAVE KIDS AND MAN, I NEED TO CARE FOR ME, SO THEY DON'T HAVE TO. I CARE FOR THEM, ALL I CAN.
I LIKE THE FACT THAT I AM STILL ABLE TO CARE FOR MYSELF. TAKE A SHOWER, CHANGE MY PADS WHEN NEEDED, I LOVE THE FACT THAT I AM ABLE TO CARE FOR ME....THERE MAY BE A DAY WHEN I CAN'T, AND I WANT TO NOT HAVE WORN OUT THE HELP BEFORE HAND....

DOES THIS MAKE SENSE? THERE MAY COME A DAY, WHEN YOU NEED SOMEONE TO CARE FOR YOU. GET YOU DRINKS, FOOD, HELP YOU WITH SHOWERS, WOULD YOU WANT TO WEAR OUT THAT HELP BEFORE ITS EVER TRULY NEEDED? SEE - MY POINT MADE!!!!

I AM GLAD I AM THIS WAY. I AM GLAD I HAVE A DR. WHO WORKS TO MAKE ME MORE EFFICIENT AND ABLE TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE NOW....I THANK GOD FOR HER PRESENCE IN MY LIFE.

I LOOK FORWARD TO SPENDING TIME WITH MY FRIEND OVER THE NEXT FEW WEEKS. I KNOW WE WILL HAVE A BLAST. ENJOY HANGING OUT AND GOD KNOWS, SHE CAN TAKE CARE OF HERSELF. BUT, TO BE HONEST - I WOULDN'T MIND CARING FOR HER. I WOULDN'T MIND HELPING HER. BECAUSE I KNOW SHE DOES ALL SHE CAN ON HER OWN LIKE ME. TO BE ABLE TO HELP HER WOULD BE GREAT....BECAUSE SHE HELPS HERSELF...ANYWAY...I AM JUST VENTING HERE...SORRY I AM SO SLOSHED...I AM JUST FRUSTRATED...STILL TRYING TO REMOVE THE SMELL OF THE GUEST FROM MY HOUSE AT THIS POINT....

I WILL JUMP OFF MY BOX FOR NOW, I JUST FINALLY HAD A CHANCE TO SHARE MY THOUGHTS....IT WAS TOUGH....

LATER MY FRIENDS.....AND READERS....