WHILE LOOKING FOR ME, I FOUND ANOTHER

WELL HELLO!!!
I FEEL LIKE I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN FOREVER. I KNOW THAT'S NOT TRUE..BUT, IF I DON'T GET AT LEAST ONE IN A DAY..I DON'T FEEL LIKE I HAVE DONE MY PART. LOL

THE TRUTH IS - I AM GETTING BETTER. I HAD A BAD ATTACK OF TN A FEW DAYS AGO. MY FACE SWELLED SO BADLY. I AM TRYING TO GET BETTER. I AM DOING BETTER NOW I THINK. BUT, IT WAS A BAD ATTACK. WE TOOK PICTURES, BUT I CAN'T UPLOAD THE DAMN THINGS BECAUSE "SOMEONE" LOST MY FREAKING CORD THAT GOES FROM THE COPMPUTER TO THE CAMERA TO TRANSFER PICS. I HAVE TONS ON THERE, EVEN DANIEL AND SARAH'S PROM PICS AND I CAN'T GET THE DAMN THINGS OFF AND GUESS WHAT? IT'S FULL NOW...DAMN IT.

I AM SO FREAKING PISSED ABOUT THAT. I WANT TO FIND THE CORD. GRRRRR

ANYWAY....I AM SO TOTALLY BECOMING MYSELF AGAIN.
I HAVE LEARNED ALLOT AND I AM MAINTAINING MY CARING, LOVING ATTITUDE, MY ABILITY TO GIVE AND CARE. BUT, HOLD ONTO TO THE MEDEA PART OF ME. THAT'S VERY IMPORTANT TO ME. MY ABILITY TO FACE THE WHO I AM INSIDE AND OUT. I HAVE LEARNED TO ACCEPT MYSELF. LEARNING TO LOVE MYSELF.

IT'S A HARD ROAD FOR ANYONE. BUT, I DO LOVE ME. YOU MUST LOVE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CAN BEGIN TO LOVE ANOTHER. YOU CAN LOVE YOUR KIDS WITHOUT LOVING YOURSELF TOO.
SO, THAT DOESN'T COUNT. I AM TALKING ABOUT A MATE OR A FRIEND. I AM OKAY WITH ME. I AM OKAY WITH MY WEIGHT, I AM OKAY WITH MY PAIN, I AM OKAY WITH MY FRECKLES AND I AM FINE WITH HAVING TO HAVE HELP SOMETIMES...IT'S OKAY...I KNOW THIS NOW. I HAVE LEARNED TO ALLOW TO BE HELPED...TO SAY, CAN YOU GET ME, OR CAN I DO SOMETHING FOR YOU. BUT, LET ME TELL YOU...THE PHYSICAL SIGNS OF TN.

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THIS WAS A SYMPTOM, BUT LEAVE IT TO ME..I HAVE A NEW SYMPTOM FOR TN - IT'S FACIAL SWELLING.
BUT, I HAVE A GREAT DR. AMAZING..AND WONDERFUL...

I AM WORKING ON CHANGING MY REGULAR DR. TO ANOTHER TOO. I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO FINDING HELP AND HAVING THEM THAT GIVE A SHIT. IT'S SO MUCH BETTER THAN HAVING SOMEONE THAT JUST WANTS YOUR INSURANCE MONEY...I WANT A DOCTOR THAT SAYS, WHAT CAN WE DO TO MAKE LIFE BETTER FOR YOU, THEN DO IT - NOT SOMEONE WHO SAYS....I CAN'T DO ANYMORE....

I WANT TO PAY IT FORWARD...OH THAT'S ANOTHER BLOG...LOL

I ENJOY SHARING THINGS WITH OTHERS. I ENJOY LETTING OTHERS KNOW ABOUT ME, ABOUT MY LIFE, ABOUT MY DREAMS,HOPES,FEARS...I AM A WRITER, SO DOING THIS FILLS MY LIFE AND TIME....

HAVE YOU CHECKED OUT MY FRUGAL LIFE YET????

YOU NEED TOO....TRUST ME - OH, THAT'S ANOTHER BLOG TOO..LOL


MOVING ON UP....TO THE TOP...YADDA YADDA YADDA....

CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE MY FRIEND HERE...YAY!!!!

OKAY...SHUTTING UP ON THIS ONE....LATER