EXCUSE THE RUMORS - I WILL TELL YOU ABOUT ME

YEA - NEVER MIND WHAT YOU BEEN TOLD OR WHAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW...LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT ME...

I AM A DECENT AGE. I AM 37 - AND I HAVE LIVED. I AM OLD ENOUGH TO HAVE HAD CHALLENGES AND OBSTACLES IN MY LIFE. I AM NOT SOME YOUNG PUNK THAT NEEDS THE RULES GIVEN TO ME..SO - EXCUSE ME, BUT, UNLESS YOU ARE OLDER THAN ME, THEN SHUT THE HELL UP...LOL

NO, SERIOUSLY!
I AM AN ADULT. I HAVE CHILDREN. THEY ARE AMAZING KIDS.

VALARIE IS 20 AND I AM VERY PROUD OF HER. SHE IS LOOKING FOR AN APARTMENT OF HER OWN TO SHARE WITH HER BOYFRIEND AND THE LOVE OF HER LIFE TARRANCE. MY DAUGHTER PREFERS AFRICAN AMERICAN GUYS (BLACK) AND AFTER MUCH DEBATE - THAT'S FINE WITH ME. HER HAPPINESS IS WHAT MATTERS TO ME. IF SHE IS HAPPY AND HE'S GOOD TO MY BABY GIRL THEN IT'S ALL GOOD. I LOVE WHO SHE LOVES.

DANIEL IS 18 - AND ENGAGED TO HIS LIFETIME GIRLFRIEND SARAH. YES, SARAH LIVED WITH US. SINCE SHE WAS 12, SHE HAS LIVED WITH US AND SHE WILL MARRY MY AMAZING SON AND BE THE MOTHER OF MY GRAND KIDS. WE HELPED RAISE HER, SO WE ARE POSITIVE SHE HAS THE RIGHT MORALS WE WANT SHARED WITH OUR SON AND GRAND KIDS. THEY WILL MARRY IN JULY BEFORE THEY TURN 19. DON'T ASSUME YOU KNOW WHAT IS BETTER FOR MY CHILDREN. REMEMBER - THEY ARE MY KIDS...NOT YOURS AND I HAVE GOTTEN 3 CHILDREN TO AGE 18 WITH NO BABIES...SO - I WOULD SAY, WE ARE DOING PRETTY GOOD HERE....

JOSEPH IS ALMOST 16. HE'LL BE 16 APRIL 22 - JUST A FEW MORE DAYS. HE HAS NOT GOTTEN HIS PERMIT OR LICENSE BECAUSE HE HAS BEEN PUT OFF A YEAR FOR HIS BEHAVIOR. JOSEPH IS A DIFFICULT ONE. HE'S AMAZING. LOVES PEOPLE, HE'S GREAT TO ME. BUT, HE HAS A TEMPER PROBLEM. HE DOESN'T TALK ABOUT IT, HE DOES SOMETHING FIRST. HE WILL HIT YOU AND ASK QUESTIONS LATER. IT HAS LANDED HIM INTO SOME AWFUL TROUBLE. HE'S NOT STEALING, LYING OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. HE HAS ACTED OUT OF SELF DEFENSE TO MOUTHY ASS KIDS AND SHUT THE MOUTH RUNNING AND LANDED HIMSELF IN TROUBLE...SO...WE LOOK FORWARD TO THE GRADES COMING UP.

THEN THERE'S TRAVIS. HE'S A SWEETHEART. DOESN'T GET INTO TROUBLE MUCH. HE IS FRIENDLY AND OUTGOING. MOST EVERYONE LIKES HIM. HE'S A SWEET ALL AROUND GREAT KID. HE'S GOT A GIRLFRIEND. THAT MAY VERY WELL BE HIS SOUL MATE. CHEYENNE IS A GREAT GIRL AND PERFECT FOR TRAVIS.

THEN THERE'S JOHN...I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START. HE'S AMAZING. MORE IN LOVE NOW, THAN EVER BEFORE. I LOVE BEING WITH HIM. WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 11 YEARS AND WE CELEBRATE 10 YEARS OF MARRIAGE IN NOVEMBER. I COULDN'T ASK FOR A BETTER MAN. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS, HE'S STILL THE ONE THAT MAKES MY HEART BEAT FAST AND GIVES ME BUTTERFLIES...I LOVE HIM MORE THAN HE COULD EVER KNOW..

ABOUT ME?
WELL, I AM GROWN AND I AM ME, RAW, REAL AND TRUE.
YOU DON'T HAVE TO GUESS WHAT I AM GOING TO THINK ABOUT SOMETHING, BECAUSE I WILL TELL YOU. EXACTLY WHAT I THINK. I AM BLUNT. I AM HONEST..CAN' YOU HANDLE THE TRUTH?

JUST LIKE DENA SAYS, IF YOU FEEL GUILTY READING IT, THEN THAT'S YOUR OWN GUILT, NOT MINE. I AM JUST BEING REAL AND HONEST...MY FRIEND...

I AM ALSO VERY LOVING AND CARING FOR OTHERS. I WILL GIVE ALL I HAVE TO GIVE. I WILL GIVE MY LAST DOLLAR, MY LAST PAIR OF SHOES. I WOULD GIVE THE SHIRT OFF MY BACK. UNTIL YOU DO ME WRONG. I WILL MOST OF THE TIME GIVE YOU A SECOND CHANCE, BUT LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING. THERE WILL NOT BE A THIRD CHANCE. I WILL GIVE YOU THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT ONCE, BUT IF YOU SCREW ME A SECOND TIME OR DO ME WRONG A SECOND TIME, THERE WILL NOT BE ANOTHER CHANCE. I LEARNED THAT WITH MY FIRST HUSBAND.

AFTER BEING SCREWD AND SCREWED OVER BY HIM, I LEARNED REAL FAST...

THE FIRST TIME YOU ARE A VICTIM -
THE SECOND TIME, AND EVERY OTHER TIME AFTER THAT,
YOU ARE A VOLUNTEER!

SERIOUSLY! IF YOU STAY - YOU LOOSE YOUR RIGHT TO BITCH!
I STAND FIRMLY ON THIS.

WHEN I WAS MARRIED TO THE FIRST IDIOT FUCKER, AND HE BEAT ME, YOU CAN ASK MY PARENTS - I SAID NOTHING. THEY DIDN'T KNOW HE BEAT ME UNTIL HE WAS IN PRISON AND I WAS DIVORCING HIS IGNORANT HILLBILLY ASS. TRUST ME, I PRACTICE WHAT I PREACH. I STAYED AND THEREFOR I LOST MY RIGHT TO BITCH ABOUT IT...SO - TAKE THAT ONE PIECE OF ADVICE...IF NOTHING ELSE - IF YOU STAY IN THE SHIT WITHOUT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT, OR CLEANING IT UP, THEN YOU LOOSE YOUR RIGHT TO TALK ABOUT HOW BAD THAT SHIT SMELLS.

IF SOMEONE TREATS YOU WRONG AND THEN YOU STOP HAVING ANYTHING TO DO WITH THEM, WHAT GUILT IS THAT OF YOURS?
NOTHING!!!!

THIS IS HOW I SEE IT, AND WHAT I TELL MY CHILDREN, IF YOU SIT IN AN ISLE AND PEOPLE ARE WALKING BY. SAY AT THE MOVIE THEATRE AND THEY KEEP GETTING UP...SAY, THEY STEP ON YOUR TOES AND HIT YOU WHILE GOING BY, AREN'T YOU GOING TO MOVE YOUR FEET A DIFFERENT DIRECTION, LIFE THEM HIGHER OR STAND UP, SO THEY CAN PASS TO KEEP FROM GETTING HIT OR STEPPED ON AGAIN? WELL THAT'S THE SAME DAMN CONCEPT - TURN THE OTHER CHEEK BUT DON'T LET THEM STEP ON YOU OR HIT YOU AGAIN...WALK AWAY...THIS IS A GREAT THING TO LIVE BY TOO...

I WILL GIVE YOU $500 DOLLARS TO HELP YOU OUT, BUT WHEN YOU COME BACK TO ME AND ASK FOR ANOTHER $500 WITHOUT AN EFFORT TO DO BETTER FOR YOURSELF, LIKE PAYING THE BILLS THAT WERE DO AND GETTING SOME FOOD, IF YOU CHOOSE TO LIE AND NOT HELP YOURSELF, BUT THEN ASK ME FOR A $500 AGAIN, I MAY GIVE IT A SECOND TIME, BUT WHEN YOU COME TO ME ON NUMBER THREE, IF THERE IS ANOTHER CHANCE - IF YOU DARE TO ASK A THIRD TIME, I WILL LOOK STRAIGHT AT YOU, AND SAY TOUGH LOVE BITCH, FIGURE IT OUT AND DO SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF...LIKE I DON'T KNOW, BUY SOME DAMN FOOD, PAY SOME BILLS. SERIOUSLY - I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW MANY TIMES, WITH MY HABIT OF SMOKING, WE HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING, PAYING BILLS AND BUYING FOOD, THAT I HAVE WENT WITHOUT SMOKING, IT'S A HABIT, NOT A NEED SAME WITH JOHN'S BEER. IT'S NOT A NEED. IT'S A PLEASURE MY FRIEND. SERIOUSLY, WHAT IS IMPORTANT IS THAT YOU HAVE WATER TO BATHE YOUR STINKING ASS, MILK, BREAD, PEANUT BUTTER AND CEREAL. SERIOUSLY PEOPLE - THINK ABOUT IT!
I AM NOT SAYING THIS AS IF I HAVE NEVER DONE IT, BECAUSE I HAVE. WENT WITHOUT CIGS TO GIVE FOOD TO MY BABIES.

IF I SEE YOU STRUGGLING, I SEE THAT YOU CAN'T MAKE IT AND YOU NEED HELP, I WILL OFFER, IF I THINK YOU ARE DOING THE RIGHT THING. IF I THINK YOU ARE GOING TO TAKE MY $$ AND RUN TO BUY DRUGS - I WON'T. YOU NEED GAS? THEN LET ME TAKE YOU TO THE STATION AND PUT $10 IN THERE FOR YOU. IF YOU ARE HUNGRY, THEN EAT WITH US, OR I WILL TAKE YOU AND BUY YOU FOOD. TRUST ME, I WILL DO WHAT IS RIGHT. FOR YOU AND FOR ME..

I HAVE BEEN HATED ON, LONG ENOUGH. I HAVE HIDDEN BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO BE TALKED ABOUT, BUT I DON'T CARE ANYMORE.

EVEN JOHN WILL TELL YOU, MY WIFE & KIDS COME FIRST AFTER GOD AND THEN MAYBE YOU IF I HAVE TIME. I HAVE SHOWN HIM AND HE HAS SHOWN ME HOW TO PLACE OURSELVES TO AN IMPORTANT SPOT. WHY SHOULDN'T WE BE IMPORTANT.

I TOLD JOHN, AFTER 3 YEARS, BUY THE DAMN BOAT. TAKE $50 OUT OF YOUR CHECK FOR PLEASURE. YOU DESERVE IT. HE WORKS HIS ASS OFF. HE MAKES SURE I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED AND THE KIDS HAVE WHAT THEY NEED. HE DESERVES TIME FOR HIMSELF. I DON'T CARE IF HE TAKES THAT BOAT OUT EVERY DAY...HE DESERVES IT. I ENJOY IT TOO. I ENCOURAGE HIM TO TAKE TIME FOR HIMSELF AND FILL HIS ENJOYMENT. HE HAS EVERY RIGHT TO ENJOY LIFE AND NOT ALLOW OTHERS TO TAKE FROM HIS LIFE. SO, IF HE OFFERS TO DO SOMETHING FOR SOMEONE, THEN I BACK HIM 100% JOHN IS A GREAT JUDGE OF CHARACTER.

IF JOHN MEETS SOMEONE AND SAYS, I REALLY LIKE THEM. I TRUST HIM, BECAUSE HE IS GREAT ABOUT THAT....HE'S AWESOME!

SO, ABOUT ME?

I WILL TELL YOU HOW I SEE IT. I WILL GIVE YOU ADVICE IF I AM ASKED. I USUALLY DON'T SPEAK IT OUT UNLESS ASKED, UNLESS I JUST FEEL I HAVE TO TELL YOU...

I DON'T LIE, I DON'T HIDE.

I AM ME, RAW - REAL - TRUE!

I KEEP MYSELF OPEN AND HONEST. I DON'T COMROMISE WHO I AM FOR ANYONE - NOT ANYMORE!

IF YOU LIKE ME, GREAT - IF YOU DON'T - I DON'T GIVE A SHIT, I AM NOT ON EARTH TO PLEASE YOU.

THINGS I DON'T LIKE -
I CAN'T STAND LIARS. JUST TELL ME THE TRUTH. DON'T LIE TO ME. I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR BULLSHIT, SO DON'T FEED IT TO ME. AND WE CAN SMELL BULLSHIT THE FIRST TURD YOU DROP, SO DON'T EVEN TRY TO GIVE IT TO US.

I CAN'T STAND STUPIDITY OR FAKE - I CAN'T STAND IT!
IT BOTHERS ME THAT SOMEONE IS A FAKE PERSON OR SOMEONE THAT IS SO DAMN STUPID...I HAVE ZERO TOLERANCE FOR STUPIDITY. SO DON'T EVEN BOTHER OF YOU FULL SHIT OR STUPID.

I DON'T DO WELL WITH SMELLY PEOPLE - DAMN JUST TAKE A SHOWER. IF YOU DON'T HAVE DEODERANT, THEN BATHE MORE OFTEN, SAY LIKE - EVERY DAY. I DON'T WANT TO SMELL YOUR ASS, YOUS NASTY BALL SACK AFTER YOU HAVE SCRATCHED YOUR NUTS AND NOT WASHED YOUR HANDS, OR YOUR NASTY CROTCH. DOUCHE THAT SHIT BITCH!!! AND GUYS, PULL THOSE BALLS UP AND WASH WITH SOAP UNDER THERE. LOL
I CAN'T STAND SMELLY ASSES...I HATE IT...I WILL THROW UP AND THEN LOOK AT YOU AND OFFER A BAR OF SOAP AND A TOWEL...FOR REAL...

I DON'T LIE - EVEN IF IT WILL GET ME IN TROUBLE, I TELL THE TRUTH..ALWAYS THE TRUTH. I DON'T CHEAT OR STEAL EITHER.
I AM NOT SAYING I HAVE NEVER. WHAT I AM SAYING IS, I HAVE AND WILL NEVER DO IT AGAIN...IT'S WRONG...LYING - CHEATING - STEALING...DO OVER!!!!

IN A DAY AND TIME FAR AWAY FROM HERE, I GIVE YOU MY LIFE...ALL I ASK IS YOUR TRUTH TO ME...DON'T FUCK ME OVER!

I HAVE BEEN LIED TO, CHEATED ON, STOLEN FROM, BEATEN AND BRUISED. I HAVE LOVED, I HAVE LOST AND I HAVE LEARNED FROM EVERY SINGLE EXPERINCE. EVERY ONE!

I LEARNED AND THAT'S THE IMPORTANT PART, LEARN FROM THE LESSONS WE ARE GIVEN. LEARN FROM THE MISTAKES WE MAKE AND LIVE LIFE ON PURPOSE.

THAT'S MY WHOLE THING!
I HAVE BEEN HURT SO BADLY AND I HAVE BEEN SO SICK, I HAVE BEEN SCARED I WOULD NEVER RECOVER, SO I LIVE ON PURPOSE.

IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND, YOU ARE MY FRIEND ON PURPOSE, NOT BY A MISTAKE. I SPEAK AND LISTEN ON PURPOSE, I TALK ON PURPOSE - I LIVE ON PURPOSE!

THAT'S MY MOTTO - LIVE LIFE ON PURPOSE!!!!

I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR BULLSHIT, SO IF YOU AREN'T ON PURPOSE, THEN LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!!!

OKAY, THAT'S PROBABLY ENOUGH FOR NOW...MOVING ON...