Repost from Health and Wellness

uesday, April 20, 2010
Finding out about my addiction
I just didn't realize food was an addiction. While I am not a drug user of any sort of recreational drug, I am not a drinking either. I smoke cigarettes which needs to stop as well, that will come later because I can't do all changes at once or I won't follow through. I believe this.
With my choice and decisions made to change I began to find out what made me tick, what would help me. I began gaining and gaining and gaining until I confronted this issue. I am a sucker for hot fudge and ice cream. So - I would fill a bowl and add hot fudge and chow down after everyone was asleep. I ate! It shows too. Like I said, total honesty.
I just realized it was controlling me. I can't let this control me anymore.
So - I made a decision. I was given some small help books for diabetes type two - one was healthy eating and one was healthy activity. I need them both. Who am I kidding?
Not a soul. I don't see fat unless I am looking at a photo of myself or if I am trying to button my pants that use to fit perfect. I have them and I am not giving them away, just yet. I decided to try them out, hold them until July 15 - my b-day and if they still don't fit, off to the charity house. But - let's get started -

Addiction is a real illness. I know this because of my dealings with drug addicts and alcoholics. So, I am about 190 to 195 would be my guess - no, let me take that down - I am only like 2 inches buttoning my shorts that are size 16.. I don't want to be a size 16 but, I want to get there first...then the rest...so, let's be honest.

I have an intestinal problem. My medication causes trouble and I have chronic constipation. I take a Vegetable Laxative and Stool Softener everyday. I take 4 each of them and only have normal bowel movements. You'd think I would be on the pot 24/7 with all that, but I am not. So - on a not bloated day from the problems I would weigh about 185 to 190...with bloating I am probably close to 200. This is a guess. I haven't rewarded myself with a scale yet. I am working toward goals.

I am rewarding myself with non food items as I reach certain goals. By June I want to be in my shorts comfortably...By June 1st because we are going on vacation in June and I want to do well...and be smaller..so, here's to getting healthy. I will eat 5 to 6 small meals a day because I am diabetic and I must keep my sugar normal.

Yesterday was Step 1 - my first day - I had 25 points and went 3 over than I was suppose to. Today I working to stay within my points and I am also going to exercise to gain some points back too.

Today - Day number 2 - well, I am still excited. I am working on a few things. I am working on baby steps to concur my disorganized lifestyle.

I am working on points, and activity today. I am optimistic and can see a future with my body being healthy. It hurts to walk, to exercise, but I am going to do it. I am going to work hard at it too. So - there we go...Have a great day...
Love you for reading.
Posted by Tracy Knight at 9:38 AM 0 comments
Food as my addiction...
I finally had to be honest and see that I needed to change. It's been to long. I didn't grow up overweight - in fact I was way small. I didn't hardly weigh anything and I miss that so much. Anyway...I have begun my journey to health, wellness and loosing pounds.
I am not going to starve myself, but I am going to make a plan. I have decided to incorporate some things into my daily living that are right for me. I will add credit when it's due and I will list the resource as well. I am not relying on one program to work for me, I am making my own...with that said, I will give credit where it is due..which is Weight Watchers http://www.weightwatchers.com - I am using a part point system - I have an entire kit from when my mom was a member. So, the ideas of the points really appeal to me and I think I will do well on this area - my next is Ruby - http://www.mystyle.com/mystyle/shows/ruby/index.jsp -
She's an amazing woman and I have been following her progress and I am taking the challenge and borrowing the 12 steps to help me because my next help is from a book called Take Action given to me by my Dr. It's two books - one for activity and one for healthy choices - so I am looking forward to using this all together as a help for me. Also - while doing this I must credit Fly Lady because with my activity and eating - I have decided to also change my life style - and Fly Lady is my choice to incorporate into my life plan.
I am excited. I started Yesterday
Monday, April 19, 2010 with my brand new life.

Let me give ya a run down here.
I am following a point system which gives point values to food and I need to stay with a certain amount of points for the day. This is causing me to be brutality honest, even when I want to lie. About eating, about weight, about skipping exercise. Honestly and True - It's me!!!

I love you foe being here - Thanks for reading!
Posted by Tracy Knight at 9:25 AM 0 comments
Updates on Health and Wellness - starting my recovery
Hey There!
I know - its been awhile. I am working toward a better me...I have a few things going on, there are some health issues, but I am working to solve it.

Health update:
Hematologist ordered blood work and I return on April 29 for an update. If the blood work is okay then I will make the steps for a bone marrow check - not sure what that entails and I honestly don't want to know. If blood is better from the iron pills or whatever then I am done with him. He suggested a visit to my OB/GYN which I haven't seen in years. So, I will be making an appointment and getting that stupid pap smear.

I started seeing a Chiropractor here in Whitney. My insurance pays for 12 visits a year.
He's great, he's careful and over all I do feel better. I had my third adjustment yesterday and I am a little more sore. But, there are other changes taking place there too that may be playing a part into that pain. Overall I am adjusting well.

My counselor slowed me to only seeing her once a month or so. I am glad. think maybe its too soon. But, I am adjusting. I know the recent visit has helped allot with all if this too.

So, I am making life changes. I have to admit that I am well, I am FAT!!! I have to do something. This is effecting my ability to move forward with anything. I am doing a combination here...

For my weight:
I am following Ruby @ http://www.mystyle.com/mystyle/shows/ruby/index.jsp - I just love her! So, I am using her plan a little and

then incorporating the Weight Watchers http://www.weightwatchers.com Point System into my life. I have a kit from a while back. It was my mothers and she gave it to me. It's perfect, has everything to do the point system right here in my on home. I even have a calculator that's so cool at finding point values for things fast and easy. I am going to keep it in my purse.

Also what I will be doing with a little of Kirstie. I am Checking out Kirstie alley's stuff too at http://www.organicliaison.com/intro. I haven't purchased anything. Because I want to do this right. I don't want to do prepared foods, 2 shakes and 1 meal, I want to change my eating habits and life for the better so I am going to make my own weight loss program. You can follow my program and progress here, at facebook, twitter, and my personal blog. I will be posting more later today...I love you reading...

If you want to check these out I have provided links for you.
Posted by Tracy Knight at 9:24 AM 0 comments